Logic vs. the heart …

A friend of mine recently told me that it takes a lot of courage and bravery to listen to your heart. This is not to say that you should completely abandon logic and everything that you have learned in life through experience and relationships. However, sometimes reason clouds the opportunity to discover if a feeling can really transform into something wonderful and beautiful. Read more

It is amazing that two people actually get together at all. There are so many variables that go into forming connections with people that I sometimes wonder if it is worth it at all. Why do we put ourselves through torture? Help me understand … are relationships supposed to be difficult? Or, is everything supposed to magically fall into place? I suppose I have always believed in the latter, but I am starting to rethink my original theory. Am I now being more realistic or more naïve? You tell me … I am far from an expert on this particular topic. I need to make 5,000 more mistakes before I qualify for that. Read more

The past, the present, the future … isn’t time just relative? As humans, we place so much emphasis on protecting ourselves from failure and pain that we sometimes forget that it is okay to fall down the rabbit hole. It is okay to get lost for a minute. Instead we get stuck in the moment analyzing what went wrong in our past, worrying about how that affects our future and never fully living in the present.

Our efforts to protect ourselves from hurt can actually have the complete opposite effect. We hurt ourselves more by taking moments of happiness for granted. As much as I hate to give credit to the gym teacher or the pedophile in “Donnie Darko,” sometimes fear really is the source of all evil. It is sad how we allow ourselves to crumble over such stupidity.

“I’ll tell you what he said! He asked me to forcibly insert the lifeline exercise card into my anus!”

I recently had an experience that was so intense that I am unable to describe it in words. Words could never give the experience … visually or spiritually … the justice that it deserves.

Stuck inside my head …

When I see something so beautiful and extraordinary, I want to share it with the world. I want to weave a story that sucks a person into my imaginary universe. However, each attempt I make at trying to describe the experience, I water down the sheer beauty of the moment. Read more

As children, we are spoon fed fairy tales. This world of fantasy and make-believe becomes our reality as we listen closely waiting to find out what happens to the lady in distress. Read more

All you really need is pizza and beer …

As long as these two things exist, no one can stay unhappy for long. If I could consume these day after day, I would. The feelings I get as I wash down a slice of pizza with an ice cold beer can easily be compared to that of a junkie who just received a fix. Read more

As I sat in the OR waiting for my shift to end, I tried to picture what my life would look like in 10 years. Would I be a nurse coming home to a husband and kids? Would I be back in school pursuing another career … maybe a 4th or 5th? I was amazed to find that no images came to mind. 

After several attempts to pull alternate realities from my mind, I decided that it would be easier if I started by eliminating careers that I will not have in the next 10 years.

Unless a miracle happens, I will never be …

1. a midget wrestler
2. a greyhound racing dog
3. a teenage prostitute
4. a male porn star
5. the Queen of England 
6. the president of the NAACP
7. an Indian chief
8. a monk
9. a ninja
10. the Toxic Avenger

As disappointing as all of that may sound, I did conclude that I do not hate my job. That’s right! For the first time in my life, the grass is greener on my side. Maybe a nurse will be the right career for me afterall …

To be continued in 10 years …

The fear, the humiliation, the excitement, the anticipation, the anxiety …

Armed with a rainbow of emotions, I start school tomorrow. Read more

Without time to share detailed encounters of my trek across Florida, I will leave you with some of my fondest memories in color. I promise to fill in more once I have settled in my new home.

Colors remind me of my journey … Read more